I couldn’t even tell you
how many times
I’ve wanted to see myself
through your eyes.
And I often wonder if those
butterflies in your stomach
are still alive.
It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy, you start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last on before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go.
#late night thoughts
i would gladly move out of state with larry if he really wanted to after graduation.
i’m basically a clingy needy piece of shit that just wants to cuddle and to sleep and to watch stupid movies and to make out with you. oh and i also want you to play with my hair until i fall asleep
let’s spend our week nights eating cereal on the floor
when there is a perfectly fine table behind us.
we can go to the movies and sit in the back row
just to make out like kids falling in love for the first time.
we’ll paint the rooms of our house
and get more paint on us than the walls.
we can hold hands and go to parties we end up
ditching to drink wine out of the bottle in the bathtub.
and slow dance with me in our bedroom
with an unmade bed and candles on the nightstand.
let me love you forever.
I want one of those marriages where they’ve been married 20 years but are still crazy in love and still cuddle on the couch and kiss a lot. I want those kind of marriages that make my kids nauseous because how in love their parents are.
some people dont quite understand
once you have an eating disorder every day is a challenge. i constantly have terrible thought that eh if i skip this meal, or not eat at all that day, or even take laxatives. any comment of what im eating or what time it is really gets me going. my head moves a mile a minute once they say those things… so the next time you are going to comment on what a person eats without knowing them think twice.
my big brother/best friend is coming home. i cant explain how excited i am. need my big brother on the south shore asap.
"Girls do not dress for boys. They dress for themselves, and of course, for each other. If girls dressed for boys they’d just walk around naked all the time."
"I don’t think people understand how stressful it is to explain what’s going on in your head when you don’t even understand it yourself."